Cried today again .
Thanks 4ec .
Although we already had a fucked up day today .
You guys still cared and concerned for me .
I really appreciate it .

I saw you today .
At canteen .
You were not happy .
I just know it .
I JUST KNOW IT .
I don't know why i know .
I just do .
Just like in the past .
I know when you were going to cry .

The sun shone so brightly this morning .
Shone brightly earlier than usual too .
Is it the end of the dark tunnel that i entered on the 20th ?
Is my journey in the darkest finally over ?
Bah .
Only she have the answer .
Only she .

Today morning woke up earlier .
Met reynard and marcus for breakfast .
6.30 meet them at one of chong pang's coffee shop .
Famous for nasi lemak de .
I reach there , they already pushing in the chair liao .
So went off to chamber there de bus stop .
Chatted while walking .
After that went 256 meet wayne as usual .
Lesson as usual .
Maths was a bit fucked up .
Sigh .
Two-face .

After school , extra lessons .
Social studies and maths .
Cooping well , i guess .
Finish le went back home , sending yoke back first though .
Walk so freaking long anyways .
Ass don't know got seal off .
Wong accompany me go bus stop .
Said bye .
And me ?
Saw her friends opposite .
But what can i do ?
Nothing .

P.S.
Is there anything to type in here ?

Now she aiming for her ex-es ?
Sigh .
I just want to smoke all day long .
That is when i feel me .
With cigarettes , i'm me .
And i don't think far .
I don't think too much .
Isn't that better ?
Huh ?

Still no reply from her .
Sat , well , consider sun morning .
Still nothing .
Saw her this morning .
She saw me .
But i turned away before i could see her reaction .
I prayed deep down inside my heart that she was happy to see me .
But my fucking brain says otherwise .
Dilemma .

Praying .

Yesterday was a nice day .
Around 5 leave house .
Went over to tina's place .
Happy birthday .
Left at 6 .
Took mrt to dhoby ghaut .
Met ceci renata wayne marcus reynard and of course , birthday girl chewbaka .
Had dinner at subway at parklane .
That was how it was celebrated .
Simple .
After that the boys went to pool .
I got 3rd placing .
After playing , went over to find the girls .
Drink drank but not drunk .
Although my mind was full of memories .
Chivas .
Quite nice .
Was suppose to make baka drunk .
In the end she was still ok .
Watch soccer too .
Liverpool vs Hull .
Don't know the full name .
When we left it was liverpool 2 hull 1 .
Just when we left and cross the road , liverpool scored .

When i felt like vomiting .
Wow .
She just came into my mind .
I just couldn't believe it .
I thought drink liao i won't be thinking much .
But i was so wrong .
I really .
Sigh .
Messaged her also .
No reply till now .

Didn't sleep well last night as well .
Reach home at around 1 plus .
Bath .
Brushed teeth .
Tried to go sleep .
Had a hard time .
Slept .
Woke up at 2.30 .
Don't know why .
Went to toilet to wash up .
Slept better .
Slept till 10.30 .

The marshmallow that i ate on saturday is still lingering in my mouth . =)

I will always remember this sentence .
Can i treat you marshmallow ?
WOW !
High liao !
Ah !

That was very nice .
And shocking . =)
Good shock though .
Sob .
If only we can turn back time aye ?

This saturday another event .
Our dearest chewbaka's birthday celebration .
And of course , my dearest hannah montina's celebration as well .
Hers will be at her house .
Afternoon .
Then at around 6 fly go find the others for baka's .
Phew .
But of course, studies come first .
Definitely .

And newsflash !
Wednesday northland no school !
Unexpected sia !
Haha .

P/S .
Didn't see her today leh .
And i don't think i think of her leh ?
Ya .
Think 90% true .
Not that i forget her liao la .
Mind was on other things .
Sigh .

We are really too young to get into relationships .

Yipee !
Just camp finish with my 4ECs .
I'm proud of so many of them .
And i finally see Mr Faizal's son .
Handsome and cute like me . =p
Camped at pasir ris .
Fun .
Tiring as well .
As per normal , i got sleep la .
Haha .
Nothing new .
A lot of flashback la .
Afterall the holiday chalet was so near .
Sigh .

If you ever see this post , you definitely know who you are .
I still have feeling for you .
Please let me know ?
I really want to know .

At the pit got something damn shocking happen sia !
Unbelievable .
Right hor 4EC ?
Shit la .
Damn wasted lor . =(

P.S.
The marshmallow taste the best ever . =)

Well , the unfairness of life bah .
Looking at it , thinking about it .
I guess .
I don't really have true friends bah .

I do know who my bros are though .

Well .
I'm speechless (typeless) .
She was so close .
I couldn't concentrate well .
I want to cry .
But tears won't come down .
And 4EC historians were there .
As well as others .
When i saw her friends were in the library .
I expected to see her .
But .
It was just so sudden i guess .

I guess i kept her to tight .
She is enjoying her freedom now .
Pray and hope that she will return to me once again .
So that i can love her .
And she will love me .

Today had chinese oral .
Fun ?
Ok la .
Easy ?
Ok la .
Difficult ?
Ok la .
Will pass ?
Ok la .
Will fail ?
Ok la .

Freaking dumb of me .
Oh well .

Today was a nice but hot weather day .
Don't know if that make any sense .
Went to watch departure with family .
Most enjoyable is had dinner at occ .
Had nice scenery to accompany me .
Was glad of it .
The scenery cleared my mind .
Didn't think of her .

So .
Left home at around 2.30 .
Took the 812 that went khatib .
While walking , was already sweating like shit .
Good thing bus de air-con strong/macho .
Crapping .
Sweat all gone le .
Then damn strange is , i got off/alighted the bus .
Then suddenly start to rain .
What the fuck ?!
No warning de leh .
So ran across the road .
Was half drenched .
But all was well .
Went to mrt de platform .
Didn't have to wait .
Phew .
If not will be late .
In the train , there was couple all around me .
I think .
But i'm very sure there was one couple in front of me .
Poof .
Chain of memories .
Especially at ang mo kio .
Wah .
Could have just break down and cry lor .
So .
Got down at bishan .
Waited at the top level for i think around 5 min .
The others reached .
Watch .
Finish liao wait for the ladies go toilet and off we go to occ !
I feel like playing golf while waiting for dinner .
Mine was err , seafood broth .
Plain and simple , and of course . the cheapest .
Dinner for 5 people was $62.40 .
Had a peep at the receipt .
I had apple juice too .
Overall , yummy .

Went to brought face product just now .
Hope will improve .
Pleaseeeee .

Those who tagged me .
Thanks for trying to brighten me up .
It works .
Well , at some point of time .
Maybe it is because of the fact that i just can't digest .
Digest the fact that i'm suffering while she is enjoying her life .
Or maybe it is just because i think too much .

Personally , i feel both are true .
But i can't control my thinking .
I just , think .
All the time .
Especially when i'm doing nothing .
No warnings either .

I just want to find out the fact .
The honest fact why we broke up .
Oh ya , i broke the pact that i made of not saying the break word .
So , whatever .

And thanks shirmain for telling me .
I guess to her , one year is only less than a day bah .
So soon got another guy , unbelievable .
Speechless .
Stun .
And many more .

Especially when i heard it .
I swore i want to break that yellow thing .
Just wonder if i'm that strong .

Oh .
Sport heat today .
Fun .
Excluding the missing her partS , seeing her partS and the flashback partS .
Notice the S .
Is plural , not singular .
4EC did ourselves proud .

I was so looking forward to this morning .
Hoping to hear something that is good .
But i guess , the higher you hope , the harder you fall , the more painful it will be bah .
Well , that was what i felt .

Happy april fool day everyone .
Cracked a joke today .
Thanks for those who asked for concern .
Appreciated .

Got a lot things want to say .
But my blog is suppose to be cheerful de .
So .
Hush bah .