Well , i guess everybody has their ups and downs bah .
This is something that God put us with .
To suffer perhaps ?
Life is not what everyone makes out to be i guess .

Mid year week .
Doing ok .
Excluding math .
Freaking tough .
Left 18 marks blank .

Why ?
Good question .
Here is why .

Got a 8 marks question is drawing de .
Wanted to try my luck .
Then damn motherfucking son of a gun son of a bitch suay .
Pencil no lead !
Of all the times .
Fuck .
Then exam cannot borrow stationary or shit .
So heck care lor .
8 marks like that bo liao .
Dulan sia !

English and Chinese paper one was a breeze for me .
A walk in the park .
Got difficulties la .
But not much .
So quite proud . =)
That was friday .

Monday went out with 4EC and studied .
Also met reynard and marcus .
Saw nonis as well .

Tuesday was math and social studies .
Ok with social studies .
Have been memorizing during the weekends .

So here i am .
Wednesday .
Mugging for my singapore history .
And a stupid one hour n.e. quiz tomorrow .
Shitty !

Oh ya ,
I didn't smoke today !
Two people are proud of me !

Another thing is examinations ain't that bad ?
Perhaps bah .
All i know is all the papers that i took , especially today .
She was floating in my mind .
Perhaps of the things she said yesterday bah .
The last two words that i heard her say .
Well , it wasn't something expected but .
She said M***** P*** .
She turned back before i could see her reaction .
After hearing her saying those two words .
I swear .
I freaking god swear .
Her voice is pasted into me .
Even right now .
That sweet voice of hers .
I miss it so much .

Also today .
Walked past her .
I was only the most 30 cm away from her .
I don't think she knew .
But i'm not sure .
I'm not sure of anything anymore .

I will try my best to quit smoking .
As promised .
But i cannot ensure that in the near future i won't smoke again .
But be reassure , i will do my darnest .
I don't want people to lost faith in me anymore .